Last Night, She Reminded Me Exactly What I Am
An SPH Experience by wifesshrimpy.
I climbed in beside her, the mattress dipping under my weight. She didn’t look up. I lay there for a minute, staring at the ceiling fan, feeling that familiar ache in my gut—the one that comes when you know you want something but aren’t sure you deserve to ask for it.
“I need us to have sex,” I said.
She sighed, put down her phone, and turned to face me. Her hand drifted toward my crotch before I even finished the sentence. “Fine,” she said, “but you better be hard.”
Her fingers found my cock through my briefs. I was already half-hard, just from the anticipation. She squeezed once, twice, testing. Her thumb traced the outline of my shaft, which was barely making a dent in the fabric. I could feel her assessing, calculating.
“You still have your panties on,” I said, reaching for her ass. I could feel the lace of her thong through her sleep shorts.
“Yeah,” she said, not missing a beat, “and you still have your little panties on too!”
I laughed, but it was hollow. She always found a way to twist it.
“They’re my ball bra,” I said, referencing a joke we’d had before about how tight my French briefs are and how they cup my balls like a bra. I said it to deflect, to make light, to pretend my underwear choice was a joke rather than a necessity.
“Well, take your ball bra off,” she said. “You better fuck me hard tonight.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
I pulled down my briefs. The air hit my cock, and it shrank slightly, retreating from the cold like it knew what was coming. I rolled on top of her, my body covering hers, my hips settling between her legs. She was still wearing her thong. I pushed it aside, felt the heat of her pussy against my thigh. I found my cock, angled it down, and started pumping.
It’s not easy. I have to use my hand to guide it in, to make sure I’m actually inside her. If I let go, I’ll slip out. I’ve learned to compensate—short, quick strokes, staying shallow because deep doesn’t exist for me. My balls slap against her perineum. I pump faster, feeling her wetness spread, but also feeling that familiar looseness—the way her pussy wraps around something that’s barely there.
“I saw you put your vibrator in my bedside table,” I said, trying to make conversation, trying to distract myself from the fact that I was already losing steam.
She was breathing steady, not moaning. “Well, I was trying to find a place to put it, so I just put it somewhere my mom wouldn’t find it.” Her voice was flat.
“Well, that’s fine,” I said, pumping harder, “until you get a big black dildo.”
“Don’t tempt me. I might get one.”
I felt a knot tighten in my chest. I wanted to push the joke further, to see how she’d react. “You wouldn’t know what to do with that.”
She laughed—loud, sharp, genuine laughter. The kind of laugh you can’t fake. “Stop it. I’m not talking about your little inchy dick tonight. Stop trying to make that happen.”
“Exactly,” I said, forcing a laugh. “Couldn’t handle a big dick.”
“Ya. Ok. Because big to you is Asian average.”
I kept pumping. My cock was still hard—barely—but I could feel it thinning, the blood struggling to stay. She was lying flat, her legs open, her body receiving my pitiful thrusts without any resistance.
“I’m above Asian average,” I said, breathless.
“Ya, by what… an eighth of an inch?”
I came.
It hit me like a bullet. No warning. One second I was pumping, the next I was spurting, my hips jerking involuntarily, my cock twitching inside her. I buried my face in her neck and grunted, the shame and pleasure mixing into something I can’t describe. I could feel my cum pooling inside her, warm and thin. She didn’t move. Didn’t clench. Didn’t moan.
I pulled out. My cock was already soft, glistening with a mix of her wetness and my release. I grabbed a towel from the floor and cleaned up. She rolled onto her side, back to me, and pulled the covers over her shoulder.
“You done?” she asked.
“Yeah.”
“Goodnight.”
I lay there, staring at her back, my heart still hammering. I could hear the hum of the vibrator in the bedside table. I could hear her mom’s TV in the next room. I could still feel the echo of her laugh, the way she said little inchy dick like it was the most ordinary fact in the world.
Because it is; that’s the worst part. To her, it’s just a fact. Like my height, my eye color, the mole on my shoulder. My cock is small. That’s not cruel—it’s data. And she’s never been anything but honest with me.
I reached over and turned off the lamp. The darkness didn’t make me feel hidden. It made me feel smaller.
I thought about that big black dildo joke. I thought about whether she’d ever actually buy one. I thought about what she’d look like riding it, moaning, taking every inch while I watched from the corner.
Then I thought about how she said don’t tempt me—and how maybe she wasn’t really joking.
I fell asleep with my hand over my soft cock, pressing it down against my thigh, as if I could make it disappear entirely.
The End.

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