SPH-THEMED EROTICA STORIES

Basically, my girlfriend and I dated all the way back to high school and some of college. We were perfectly matched in basically every way, including sexually.

We were both each other’s first times, and I had always worried about my dick size. I’m below average in both length and girth, with 4.2″ in length and 4.3″ in girth.

But my fears were assuaged with my girlfriend, as she was more than okay with my dick. We had great sex, and she would even sometimes be able to cum from penetration alone, which I never thought could happen with my size.

Unfortunately, we went to different colleges a reasonable distance away, and we finally couldn’t do it anymore and broke up on friendly terms in junior year.

For the next six years, I had three girlfriends and ten sexual partners. Admittedly, in an attempted non-vain way, I am a good-looking guy, and it wasn’t super hard to find girls willing to have sex, but my insecurities over my size made me stop many potential encounters.

There were indeed some bad moments, including two hookups that were very obviously and openly disappointed, and that was humiliating. But not bad overall! Had a good time with most girls, and always did my best to get them off via oral. However, seven of the ten hookups were one-time only, and I can’t help but wonder if it’s because of my small size. Of these three ex-girlfriends, I managed to make one of them cum from penetration alone, but rarely, much rarer than my original ex. The best and most compatible sex I ever had was always with my original ex.

But six years after we broke up (and we had lost contact by then), I decided to go to my high school reunion. I lived across the country at this point, so it was my first time attending.

Long story short, my original ex was there, and we reconnected in a significant way. We ended up getting back together! This is as of three months ago. I transferred to the office near my hometown, and we’re finally living together for the first time.

Everything is perfect, and it’s clear to me that we were just meant to be. Well, almost everything. Our sex life now has one significant difference that’s been gnawing at me.

It’s still great overall, to be honest, and she has shown no signs of being bothered by what I am bothered by, and I make her cum every time with oral. But she just isn’t able to cum anymore through penetration alone.

I have to suspect that she’s been ruined by bigger dcocks. I don’t know what else would cause this.

We haven’t really had any serious discussions about our sex lives during our big break, but we’ve had a laugh or two and some teasing about it while drunk, and she told me she had been with 8 guys. She only had 1 long-term relationship that lasted 3.5 years. I don’t know his dick size or any of her other hookups/fwbs’ sizes, but I am also pretty insecure about her ex, as he is a bigger guy than me in general. I’m 5’8 and a bit skinny, while he is 6’2 and has a very different body from mine. I guess it wouldn’t surprise me if he were packing down there.

It’s reignited my insecurities about my size (and my suppressed SPH kink, hence why I’m posting here).

I can’t stop thinking about how she must have taken, probably not even just 1 big cock. Among the nine other partners, it was statistically likely that more than one existed. Actually, it’s statistically probable that I am smaller than them all. Which dicks is bigger than mine? Did she cum for it? Which one rewired her nerve endings and ruined her for small dicks?

I’m so hard and humiliated while writing this, but at the same time, I’m so frustrated and sad. Again, we’re soulmates, so I feel like something was robbed from me by some fucker with a big cock who was either never meant to be with her in the first place or, even worse, was just using her as a warm hole during a random hookup.

I feel like such a cuck, like seriously, this must be the closest you can think to a cuck without actually being cucked.

I actually can’t stop thinking about it. Was it the length? Was it hitting her so deep that it dwarfed in pleasure the spots my dick was stimulating? Or was it a fat cock, that stretched her pussy out so much that her nerves are now forever stretched and can’t feel the same stimulation from my dick anymore? Mind you, she has a super tight pussy, the tightest I’ve been with, and another perfect compatibility for the two of us, given my small size. I’m imagining what it must have looked like for that tight pussy to have been so stretched out by a girthy cock. It must’ve been painful at first, but my girlfriend didn’t give up, and I know she must’ve taken it slowly and soon enjoyed it immensely.

I’m gonna stop writing now. You get my point. We haven’t talked about it. As far as I know, she doesn’t think it’s a problem and doesn’t think I believe it is because we do have passionate sex, and I make her cum with my head. I’m not gonna bring this up to her and risk ruining our entire relationship or putting these thoughts in her head, though I’m sure she’s fleetingly thought them.

Don’t know what to do. I’m disgusted that I wrote this because, again, I’ve been actively trying to suppress my SPH/humiliation kink for a decade now. It’s so cruel and unfair that a big dick can just casually do this to two perfectly matched soulmates.

 

The End.

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